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So, Now You

  By Jason Wallace

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  So, Now You

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace

  I could only ever want

  To have you

  To kiss you

  But you're out of sight

  Far from me tonight

  But I would give anything

  Just to be with you

  And no one else will do

  I've been somethin I should never be

  But if you want to know if I love you

  You know I still do

  And no one else could be above you

  Or ever close to enough to

  Make me wanna change

  How you make me feel, too

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  Must decide if I'm worth it

  The pain, the hurt, the anger

  The care, the love, the first kiss

  I don't want us to go back

  To bein strangers

  I only ever want to show you

  I'm not like what you've known

  I know you

  Have been hurt so much it's still painful

  So you

  Have to fight this fight or give up

  Put up with a screw up

  Forgive so you can never forget me

  And hopefully never regret me

  I only hope I can let me

  Do things right again

  Never look back so then

  You can always be happy you met me

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  Can learn to love me stronger

  Knowing it will get better

  And know I want my doubts

  To be no longer

  I'm sorry I ever had them

  If we don't give in

  We can't win

  I don't want us ever

  To not be together

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  Can please forgive me

  I want to give you

  Everything that makes life worth living

  You think I fulfill your dreams

  But I only pray I can

  Sometimes it somehow seems

  That I'm too much of a man

  Always questioning something

  Never fully accepting

  Not realizing what I have

  Always second guessing

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  So now you

  Know how sorry I'm feeling

  But please know I'm always willing

  Trying to be what you need

  And never in between

  What you've had and what you're wanting

  So now you

  So now you

  Can please forgive me

  A Whole Lotta Beautiful

  I got someone new to hold

  The hand of a long lonely man,

  Sittin’ by me, beside me, lookin’

  Like a whole lotta beautiful.

  We could take a drive

  On this do nothin’ kinda night,

  Ride through the countryside,

  See through the dark before we park,

  Get a bit farther than where we are,

  Knowin’ that when the mood hits us with all its might,

  Nothin’ could be wrong because

  It’s been only just completely right.

  My jacket’s in the back; it

  Could never leave me cold

  Cuz I got you, a whole lotta beautiful.

  I could ask you where you’ve been

  My whole life

  Until this moment, now,

  But I won’t because I don’t

  Care – what, where,

  Or even how that led to this

  Or what life used to hold.

  I could never miss the least of it.

  I got you for a while, and it’s always full

  Of a whole lotta beautiful.

  This crisp air,

  Your long hair,

  Your soft kiss,

  Your sweet lips, fingertips

  Running down my arm again,

  Everything the night brings,

  The right things

  That leave me lost in a whirlwind,

  And I don’t wanna go back to when

  I never knew

  A girl that could make me choose

  Between nothingness and this absence

  Of all my cares in a world where

  I feel so incomplete, without any sense.

  You know it’s you, the most wonderful,

  And you’re only a whole lotta beautiful.

  I could ask you where you’ve been

  My whole life

  Until this moment, now,

  But I won’t because I don’t

  Care – what, where,

  Or even how that led to this

  Or what life used to hold.

  I could never miss the least of it.

  I got you for a while, and it’s always full

  Of a whole lotta beautiful.

  You’re a whole lotta beautiful,

  More than a little more

  Than the one I’ve been waiting for,

  All I could have hoped in a helpless moment of

  Chaos in my mind, no longer sure of much anymore

  Except that you’re the best, better than any of the rest before,

  You’re the one out of so many that’s worth the risk

  Of losing and being turned loose after such a toll

  Because you’re a whole lotta beautiful.

  I’ll give up

  When my time’s up.

  So little lasts forever.

  If you’ve had enough,

  You can say enough,

  And I’ll try to understand

  Why we can’t be together.

  I won’t complain; I hope I don’t.

  I know this time is like it’s somethin’ that I stole,

  Not really for me with such a whole lotta beautiful.