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My Whole Life Through

  I wish that you could see

  That you should be with me.

  I could fill in the holes

  Left of you from

  All of those bitter memories.

  When you smile that smile,

  I nearly lose my mind.

  I can’t take the eyes off of you

  That never thought they’d find

  Someone that looks the way you do,

  Whose lips seem like they’re

  Sweet to consume.

  If there is still room

  In the heart left behind,

  What’s not torn up inside,

  Nobody would ever love you

  The way I’d love you my whole life through.

  I know he walked away from it all,

  Passed up everything I wish I had.

  He threw you away and never bothered to say

  That he was sorry he tore your life in half.

  He was everything to you.

  He got to do all I want to do.

  He could hold you. I’m sure he told you,

  So many times, “I love you.”

  I can’t see how

  When you’d smile that smile,

  Or when you’d start to cry

  How he ignored all of the love he gained

  Or the pain he caused and let it remain.

  I ask myself, “Why? Oh, why?”

  How could he give you up like that?

  How could he be your other half

  And then act as though

  The thought of it made him laugh.

  He was a fool.

  I’ve been one, too,

  But then again, I’ve never had you.

  When you smile that smile,

  I nearly lose my mind.

  I can’t take the eyes off of you

  That never thought they’d find

  Someone that looks the way you do,

  Whose lips seem like they’re

  Sweet to consume.

  If there is still room

  In the heart left behind,

  What’s not torn up inside,

  Nobody would ever love you

  The way I’d love you my whole life through.

  If you were my life,

  If I could have been him,

  And you’d been my wife,

  I would have never

  Let us not be together.

  I would have given my all

  To make it alright.

  When you smile that smile,

  I nearly lose my mind.

  I can’t take the eyes off of you

  That never thought they’d find

  Someone that looks the way you do,

  Whose lips seem like they’re

  Sweet to consume.

  If there is still room

  In the heart left behind,

  What’s not torn up inside,

  Nobody would ever love you

  The way I’d love you my whole life through.

  If I could be with you,

  I’d love you my whole life through.

  I’d never regret it

  And never let it

  Be anything I’d abuse.

  I’d be too afraid to lose

  The one that could make me smile,

  The one that would be so worthwhile.

  I can’t deny, though I don’t know why,

  You’re all I want; I don’t lie; it’s far too true.

  When you smile that smile,

  I nearly lose my mind.

  I can’t take the eyes off of you

  That never thought they’d find

  Someone that looks the way you do,

  Whose lips seem like they’re

  Sweet to consume.

  If there is still room

  In the heart left behind,

  What’s not torn up inside,

  Nobody would ever love you

  The way I’d love you my whole life through.

  If you could only see me there

  And only know what I feel,

  I’d do my best to beat all the rest

  And show you that feeling like that

  Can still be real.

  I’d never give up on you.

  I’d never be unfaithful or untrue.

  I’d love you with all of my broken heart,

  And I’d love you my whole life through.

  The World to Me

  Tonight, I played that song.

  You know the one

  You loved

  To dance to

  Something neither of us

  Ever knew.

  I still can’t believe

  That all I did was blink,

  And you weren’t there with me.

  You fought so hard

  To get away,

  So I let you go,

  Though I was the only one

  Of us who could ever know

  Just what you meant to me.

  You could not be

  Anymore in love with me.

  Now that you’re marrying him,

  I wish you all the best.

  All of my hopes and dreams

  Are all wearing thin,

  So much so, so I put it all aside.

  You’d have never guessed

  That I can’t begin

  To tell you

  What I even kind of feel inside.

  You never did see

  That you were the world to me.

  You were the one and only and only one

  That was ever more than just for fun

  Or for denying what I really needed ever at all,

  And until not long ago, if you’d ever called,

  I would have dropped everything

  Just to come running to the one who tore

  Open my soul

  And left me for dead and thought it

  Did not mean a thing.

  I Miss You More Than You Know

  I miss you more than you know

  I love you more than I show

  Because I can't show it to someone

  Who's never around

  Though I let you go

  I can't really let go

  I've lost all of my hope

  And I am so broken down

 

  I miss you more than you see

  Because you don't talk to me

  Except when you

  Need another to make you believe

  That you still have control

  And you can take a piece

  And leave an aching hole

 

  I still try

  To find some reason why

  It all had to go this way

  Every tear that I cry

  Is another knife in my eye

  Leaving me with even more

  That I wish I could say

 

  You almost act

  Like you kind of want me back

  You told me you're not really done

  The most painful fact

  Is that what you think I lack

  is what you see in another someone

  Even though he's been playing you

  You told me it's true

  You're the one that's afraid to be alone

  You give me hope I haven't known

  And then take more away and leave me with none

 

  I look for some excuse

  So that we can talk

  But it's of no use

  I'm fading away to a place I cannot come back from

  I imagine a day

  When you might feel as I do and say

  That the pain can be undone

  And you'll forget why it ended and we can fix it

  And you'll let me be your one

 

  But that won't happen

  It's only imagined

  I miss you now so much

  You're still my great passion

  I want to be yours, your last one

&nbs
p; But it's all gone as quickly as the rush

  That came and grabbed us from pain and sadness

  I wish it was back like it was

  In the beginning when it all was unending

  Before your hate drove me to end us

 

  Each day, I miss you

  I don't miss you any less

  It should be easy

  I made you leave me

  But all I feel is emptiness

 

  I miss you more than you know

  But I can't let it show

  Even when you ask me if I do

  I miss you more than you feel

  It's a razor that's real

  Cutting me so deep

  For still loving you

 

  I miss you so badly

  If only had we

  Done more to remember what we meant

  All of my days and my nights are so saddening

  I'm alone and allowing

  Myself to hold onto times that came and went

 

  I miss you more than you know

  More than you will ever know

  Sweetest Intentions

  You're my Queen...

  And I'm your King.

  Your past is nothing.

  It doesn't mean a thing.

  All that matters

  Is what happens

  From this moment on.

  To last from now

  Through the in between,

  Is how it should be...

  Even if we feel we can't go on.

  If you need,

  I will be right here,

  Saving every last breath

  Just for you.

  I would wait

  Even until after death for you.

  Do you see me

  Whenever you look into the mirror?

 

  Right here is still too far...

  Though I know right where you are.

  The test is planned

  But not yet in our hands.

  Whatever we do is all

  Completely the whole.

  I'm waiting patiently

  To catch your fall.

  When time swallows our souls,

  It won't swallow our love.

  We may be young fools,

  But we are the each other

  That one another are dreaming of.

 

  It's all waiting for us.

  It's known to someone else.

  We might not know it ourselves,

  But it will all come to be.

  It will be me living for you...

  With you...

  And you living your life for me.

  These are the sweetest intentions

  That I can give

  To you.

 

  I love you so much

  That I cannot say...

  You're all I think about

  Every night and every day.

  I'm so sorry

  If I've ever made you cry.

  But I don't want you to worry

  Or ever wonder why

  I could ever love you.

  I'll be your forever...

  And all that you ever

  Wanted in a man.

  You're so perfect

  For all that's been missing

  In my life up til now.

  I know just how

  I can be

  Better than the me

  I've always been.

  You'll never break my heart.

  My dreams are everywhere you are.

  I'll always fall in love

  Over and over again!

  It's all waiting for us.

  It's known to someone else.

  We might not know it ourselves,

  But it will all come to be.

  It will be me living for you...

  With you...

  And you living your life for me.

  These are the sweetest intentions

  That I can give

  To you.

 

  Don't forget the way

  You melt whenever you remember my name.

  I'm so intent.

  I am completely true.

  I know that I'm meant

  Only for you.

  As you are for me.

  You've never loved

  Like this before me.

  It's hard to believe

  And hard to conceive

  That you're exactly

  What I'm been looking for

  Since the day I was born for you.

 

  It's all waiting for us.

  It's known to someone else.

  We might not know it ourselves,

  But it will all come to be.

  It will be me living for you...

  With you...

  And you living your life for me.

  These are the sweetest intentions

  That I can give

  To you.

  It's all waiting for us.

  It's known to someone else.

  We might not know it ourselves,

  But it will all come to be.

  It will be me living for you...

  With you...

  And you living your life for me.

  These are the sweetest intentions

  That I can give

  To you.

  You haven't known me long...

  But yet you know me so well!

  Since you've come along,

  I've felt so strong,

  And we can never regret that we fell...

  So in love.

 

  It's all waiting for us.

  It's known to someone else.

  We might not know it ourselves,

  But it will all come to be.

  It will be me living for you...

  With you...

  And you living your life for me.

  These are the sweetest intentions

  That I can give

  To you.

 

  I'll be right by your side,

  Through thick and thin,

  When tears begin and end,

  Or even when

  You can only think to hide!

  I'll be your heart.

  I'll be your mind.

  You are more

  Than I imagined I could find.

 

  Just be my Queen...

  And I'll be your King.

  I will cherish

  Every feeling you bring.

  I would do...

  Anything...

  For you!

  Amazing

  I keep finding

  Myself fearing

  That somehow

  You won't get near me

  That one day I'll be

  Clearly

  Hurt again

  I know I'm being stupid

  And I know I already knew it

  I was afraid I blew it

  But then

  I found out you understood it

  That you weren't angry

  So I thought how could it

  Be so amazing

  I can't stop it or

  Forget how good it

  Really is and I shouldn't

  Be feeling anything less than

  Completely in it

  I know I knew I loved you

  And I really meant it

  But I let foolishness take hold

  And absent-minded, I've been it

  I know that if you'll still have me

  I have to put this all right past me

  Learn to love you more gladly

  And stop treating you so badly

  You don't deserve how mistaken

  I've been lately

  And my heart is achin

  From knowing I've been anything less to you

  Than amazing

  I doubt myself that I can be amazing

  You always tell me I'm amazing

  B
ut can I really be amazing

  When you're the one that really is amazing

  Please just trust that such stupidity is just a phase and

  That I will try so hard to give it up

  Because there is no time for us to be wasting

  And no chances we should be taking

  Of letting anything we've built be shaken

  The only one that could ever love me right

  Is the only one I could miss tonight

  And everything I have needed

  And someone I have yet mistreated

  And couldn't be sorrier

  But hope this mess is completed

  Something so amazing

  Is harder to find

  Than any riches, so I'm facing

  The dilemma of my other side

  Coming out while the good one hides

  But I promise I will kill that man

  And leave him behind

  Because I can't miss out on you, so amazing

  Nothing but truly amazing

  So very very amazing

  That I can't believe you're mine

  Not Wanting You, I Just Cannot Pretend

  Forgive me

  For ever caring

  But there is no one else

  So good

  Comparing

  Anything they are to you

  You are so perfect it scares me

  You make me breathe just barely

  And now you’re leavin

  Treatin me unfairly

  I thought we knew

  That sometimes forever just can’t be forever

  When two people can’t be together

  Without tellin each other the truth

 

  You hoped that you found real love

  So you could really feel loved

  But I was holdin back my fears

  And lyin, sayin I shed no tears for you

  So, now I can only ask

  Why did we get caught up

  In so good it could not be thought of

  And then let it slip away so fast

 

  You want to still be friends

  But I don’t think I can take it

  My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin

  So everything with you must end

  I only wanted your friendship

  No matter how much you meant, and

  You took it beyond, so shocking

  But then we almost altogether just stopped talking

  Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend

 

  Maybe after we give some time

  It might be alright to find

  Each other once more and begin

  Back where we started

  Forgetting that we parted

  Back when I liked you as more than a friend

  But I couldn’t speak it

  You left me so very weak, it

  Felt like I stretched the truth

  So much, it bent

  Love crept in

  But it only lasted

  So little and went so fast, it

  Got used up and spent

 

  You want to still be friends

  But I don’t think I can take it

  My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin

  So everything with you must end

  I only wanted your friendship

  No matter how much you meant, and

  You took it beyond, so shocking

  But then we almost altogether just stopped talking

  Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend

 

  Every second since then

  Feels like a brand new sentence

  Sentencing me to a life of bein lonely without you

  I don’t think that I can serve it

  But maybe I deserve it

  What did I do

  If I wasn’t perfect

  I’m sorry I didn’t make it worth it

  And you’re probably better off

  Now that we’re through

  But if I dream

  I hope that it will seem

  Like the reality I thought I had with you

 

  You want to still be friends

  But I don’t think I can take it

  My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin

  So everything with you must end

  I only wanted your friendship

  No matter how much you meant, and

  You took it beyond, so shocking

  But then we almost altogether just stopped talking

  Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend

 

  If you ever pass by me

  Please do not deny me

  The chance to finally try to be your friend

  But I can only be hoping

  That I’m finally coping

  And that not wanting you, I can pretend

  Something That I Told You

  I don't think I told you

  But I would give my life

  To hold you

  If only once

  Could you ever allow it

  Since I can't do it...

  Now that...

  The miles we have between us

  Aren't any shorter

  But only seem to keep us

  Wishing so much it's hurting

  And can we get through the next few months

  Til it could happen

  Before I lose my mind

  And I find

  It's not somethin I could have and

  It's not somethin open

  But so difficult that all this pain

  And all this hoping

  Is all in vain

  And I don't think I can take it

  Because my heart is so slowly breaking

  And I need so badly to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  If everyone stays out of our business

  And only accepts it like meant it

  Maybe it won't be so bad

  But the time it is taking

  Is making me so lonely that I'm aching

  And all the waiting

  Is worth it all the while but I'm

  Too sad right now to smile

  Because the loneliness I'm hating

  And I know that we'll be together

  Whether it makes sense to them or not

  But time seems it's standing still

  And if I don't hold you soon

  I'm afraid it will seem I never will

  I would give anything in this world to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Why is waiting so damn painful

  Dragging on and on

  Until I feel

  My mind is gone

  Will it all come back and remain,

  All... I could ever do

  Is spend a while

  Missing you

  In denial

  That wishing you

  Were here right now isn't killin me

  Waiting so unwillingly

  Because not that I don't want you now

  But knowing the wait is way too long somehow

  We have to make time for us some day soon

  Forget how hard that is

  So I can give in to give in to you

  I would give anything it takes to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  You worry I might not accept your past

  Like you haven't tried to forget it fast

  But you don't get that I know that

  That's the old you

  I would do anything just to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Is it anything I ever told you

  I'll say it from a mountain top

  If I could hold you

  If that's not something that I told you

  I'll still shout it out from every place

  Just so maybe I could see your face

  And maybe I can have on
e taste

  Of the lips I long to know, you

  Know I would give the world to hold you

  But if that's something I haven't told you

  You will know it soon

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